Liar

Is a liar capable to transform themselves out of this continuous habit?

  I get a phone call from him. 

It is a little past nine o'clock.

 I just put handfuls of shampoo in my hair, to make a volcano upon my head. 

My mom decides to hand me the home phone 

while I am INSIDE the shower.

 I hold the palm of my hand, to one ear,

 so I can hear from the other.

 He is breathing heavily.

"Whats wrong?" i ask.

"The cops are after me" 

I start to cry.

There is a short response 

followed by deep breaths,

 "I have been dealing for the past month." 

I am silent.

"Rachel, to be honest 

I have not been to school much.

 Dealers rip me off so I beat them up. 

I need the money." He takes another breath,

 "I delete numbers and texts 

from everyone, boys and girls. 

When I hardly respond, 

I am either in the middle of dealing, 

or am in the car with some hustlers.

 I would not let you in my wallet

 because there is heroin inside."

 He takes another deep breath and continues

 "I did not want you to know. 

I did not want to hurt you."

"My trust for you is close to none. 

You knew it would hurt me. 

And you still did it anyways?"

At this point, I am crying uncontrollably.

 "What MORE have you lied about?"

 

He tells me there is nothing else he has lied about.

 Is he lying about not lying?