creators of life

If only you noticed my white t-shirt in a sea of black.
If only you noticed how much pain I feel inside.



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If only you noticed that you are not nurturing.
If only you noticed that tears run down my face.
If only you noticed that I am not invisible.
If only you noticed that you broke my heart.





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If only you noticed my wounds.
If only you noticed that I need your assistance.
If only you noticed what makes me happy.
If only you noticed, I do not have faith that I will recover.



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If only you noticed that I need saving.
If only you noticed that you disappeared from my life.
If only you noticed that you say you care, but are incapable of showing it.


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If only you noticed that I took over your role as a mother, and nine.
If only you noticed that you have unknowingly shoved me aside.
If only you noticed how much weight you put on my shoulders.
If only you noticed that my wish was to get close to you.
If only you noticed that wish, I do not want anymore.





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If only you noticed that you took away my childhood.
If only you noticed how much I do not trust you anymore.
If only you noticed how frightened I have become.
If only you noticed that I have shut myself down.
If only you noticed that I am lost.



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If only you noticed when I do not eat.
If only you noticed my successes academically.
If only you noticed how much I LOOKED up to you.
If only you noticed how much I have accomplished.





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If only you noticed how horrible MY father was to us.
If only not you noticed your partners, are not winners.
If only you noticed how many unfortunate decisions that you made.
If only you noticed that I am weak.
If only you noticed how weak you are.



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If only you noticed my strengths.
If only you noticed that you do not listen.
If only you noticed that you can help me.
If only you noticed your negative changes, in mood and tone.





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If only you noticed that you do not notice anything.



If only you noticed that you do not make me proud anymore.
If only you noticed I want to get close to you.
If only you noticed I do not know how to do so, anymore.
If only you noticed that I am your daughter
If only you noticed that I am drowning.
If only you noticed I need you.


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mom. i love you.