tension

On of the worst feelings that someone can come across. In my case, tension becomes anger, which yet again in the end becomes rage. I feel like a tank of gas that is empty and is just coasting down a long drive way to god knows where. My house is this long drive way. My parents are communicating. My dad resigned from the police department, I did not find this out until a week after it happen. There was two columns in the paper stating false things that the community accused him of doing. One of which was carrying a gun off duty. He is allowed to carry a gun where ever he'd like, cops in general (i think depending on their rank) can carry guns off duty. My step dad cal carry a gun on an air plane. He has done it before. Also, the community said that he RAN and pulled down flyers that people had set up all across Palo Alto. My step dad can barely walk, let along jog or in this case run. It is a complete joke. My step dad went to the new captain and chief and demanded that they would never give out false information like this again, and in the paper the next day it said what had happen about being angry about the last column in the paper, and it did not justify why, and along with that it said more things that did not happen. My step dad is sueing Palo Alto Police Department for 100,000 dollars. He is going to win too, that is the funny part. They know not to mess with him, but they are apparently up to the challenge. All of the lower ranks that my step dad supervises absolutely loves my dad. He is strict but fair, nice but serious. I do not know how this was said, but that is what an sever officers have told me. The new captain was the one that decided my step dad should be laid off for being on "disabled" something or other, and could not do the streets, and had to be in the office until his knee replacements in a couple weeks. May would be his five years there, and after then he was going to retire with all his medical etc, but he was pretty much forced to resign about two weeks ago. I do feel bad for him in a way. He seems better off, but that is always the front he puts on.

I do not understand why people put on complete fronts, but make suggestions such as fake smiling and saying with a sad tone that they are perfectly fine and then put their head down. It is not illegal for feel down or depressed. I think in society that people are afraid to show to much emotion, and that this has been happening for a very long time, especially in police departments. Showing emotion in the department brings down other officers, and affect the officer that is having a hard time. Other officers target them as being weak. So much for being a "team" right? That is how the world and any company or work place is. It is a high school for grown adults. Something always has to happen, to make people feel like they have it better off by bringing other down or twisting what they saw or heard to others like a game of telephone. Messages are spread and what it comes down to is anger and rage for a short or long period from someone, and other get flushed down the toilet for their negative emotions that had nothing to do with the victum to begin with. Its a vicious cycle. In high school, there is an program every year, breaking down the walls. It is affective the day that people are in that gym, they learn things about people, but once they walk out, hours later nothing they learned in that gym is put into practice. When will people be simpathetic to others, and not expect others to be nurturing towards them until they show some sign of caring in the first place? This will never stop. People point fingers at others for problems in society but in reality they are apart of the problem.