arrested november 2008

He called me on the phone. It was about eight o'clock at night, and I have not heard from him since around 12. I have been sitting on my couch, staring at my phone for hours now. He finally calls me and I can vividly see what he has done, by what he is saying.
"I got arrested babe, I'm sorry."
"SORRY?!" I yell.
I tone my voice down "What happen?"
"I owed some of my homeboys money from before I moved to Colorado, so we walked off campus and one of our guys picked us up and took us to Safeway."
I do not say anything. He sighs. "Rachel... Please hear me out."
"I can hear you just fine." I say firmly.

I can tell he is frustrated. "We walked into Safeway. We walked down all the aisles looking for any lady with a purse."
I am silent, waiting for him to continue. "I called -and says a name I do not remember- and he pulled up in front of Safeway. I gave my homeboys "the sign" and we walked down an aisle where a lady was trying to get something off the top shelf." he takes a breath. "Ya there Rachel?" he says. " I can hear you loud and clear, Taylor."

"Okay, so Alex tells the lady that he can get it for her, and he looks over at us, and we grab her purse out of the cart, and my boys huddle around me. We go out the IN door and run into the car and drive off. A whole bunch of people run out to get the license plate. To bad it was a stolen car, but we decided to stick out heads out the windows and yell out random letters and numbers so they would get confused."
I am shocked. He has been going down hill since he was selling E, but I do not say anything.
"I'm sorry Rachel, I just needed the money to pay it off, and I do not have like any money right now, and of course I am not going to ask my parents for 1000 dollars-" I stop him. "One THOUSAND dollars?"
"Yeah... Rach. You do not understand the drug world. You could be with your homeboys, but if you do not pay them back, they are your enemies just like that."
I feel sick to my stomach.
He tells me more. "We made our way safely to a guys house, and empty the purse." Then we hear sirens. All my homeboys ran but three of us. The cops got us in hand cuffs and we were sent down town."
"I can not believe you did this Taylor."
"Rachel, you do not understand, I need the money or these guys could do something really bad. And the reason why I did not call you was because if they saw I had a girlfriend they would threaten to get you."
I feel sick, like I am about to throw up.
"Taylor..."
"Rachel, I did something stupid. It has nothing to do with you though."
"STOP right there Taylor" I yell. " It DOES NOT affect me, or have anything to do with me? Are you kidding right now. Taylor I do not think you understand that your past with the drug world is still apart of your life RIGHT NOW!"
"No Rachel, you are a huge part of my life." I stop him. "Taylor, exactly. I feel like since you have that drug world and it is still there even though you are sober. It affects me more then you'll ever know."
He does not say anything.
"I'm sorry for blowing up. I know you have had a rough day, but you can not keep doing stuff like this, you are going to get hurt." I pause. "Taylor, you are going down hill."


I start to cry.